Chapter 14

Life is good. We've been busy as all hell, I've barely had 10 minutes to myself let alone any time to really spend with Nick, but life was good. The only time I've spent with him has been with the other guys which really upsets me. I mean everything's different between us but nothing's changed. By the time we are done with the show...or rehearsal ...or the meetings ...there's always something else. It never ends. And when we are actually able to get to our rooms, it's so late and we're so exhausted that all I can think about is sleep. I love the time we spend together, don't get me wrong, but I want to be alone with him. I want to be able to kiss him, and touch him, and really talk to him. About the important stuff. The US stuff. Not this CD, or whether or not Brian's getting more annoying as the time goes by, or whether Howie should grow his hair again (we all say NO... Howie seems to think it's attractive... It's his head so he can do whatever he wants really ...but if it were m e ..well thankfully it's not). Just stupid stuff like that. That's what we talk about. That's all we CAN talk about. And it's starting to get to me.

We all got into the elevator at Jive and made the long trip up to the board room we were scheduled for a meeting in. This would be it. The last meeting before the CD would be released. I was starting to really hate this building. It seemed like we were here almost every other day. know I'm just cranky. The ride over had been hell and I was hoping to run into Nick before I went up. To talk to him, see him, touch him. The elevator ride went by smoothly. Visions of what happened last time we were in this elevator together danced in my head and I smiled. We got up there and I made my way to the board room. Before I got there I felt a pair of arms grab me and pull me into the men's room, pinning me against the wall. Before I had a chance to react he was there. Kissing me passionately, his tongue invading my mouth which was open in shock. "I've missed you so much Kev." He moaned, tearing his mouth from mine and licking a path down my jaw to my ear. "Missed your touch, your smell, your t aste." He was practically growling and suddenly I was rock hard. I couldn't help but moan, pulling his mouth to mine for another kiss.
"I know Nicky...it's killing me." I whispered, running my hands over every inch of his body I could reach without taking my mouth from his neck. I planted feather light kisses over his neck and stopped at his Adam's apple, softly sucking on it. I heard him sigh as he ran his fingers through my hair. I could tell the time apart was killing him too, which made me happy. I had been afraid that maybe I was the only one affected by our time apart. Judging from the bulge in his pants, he missed me too.

"I want you so much Kev. I need to feel you..." He rested his head on my shoulder, his face angled downward, looking at both our crotches. His hands trailed down my stomach and landed on my belt buckle. Slowly he began to undo my pants and I stopped him. "Nicky..we can't. Not here...not now." It took EVERY ounce of will power to do that. There was nothing more I wanted than for him to take my jeans off, throw me against the counter and fuck me hard, fuck me long, just fuck me. The look in his eyes were animalistic, raw, filled with a passion I'd never seen before, only felt.

"I can't be in there with you and not be with you. Not be inside you..having you moan my name...beg me for more... Fuck Kev. I'm so hot for you.. So fucking hard..." He was growling in my ear, sending shivers up my spine. Making my stomach do flip flops. Making my ache for him even more urgent.

"I know Nicky.. I know." I didn't even recognize my own voice. It was so low and throaty, hoarse from the need that consumed me.

"Please...." He began to kiss his way down my neck and made his way further down my body so that he was nearly on his knees in front of me. Just looking down at him kneeling there in front of me was almost enough to put me over the edge. "Please Kev. Just let me taste you. Let me make you cum and taste you. Just one little taste."

HOLY FUCKING SHIT! If that wasn't the most erotic thing I'd ever seen and heard, I don't know what was. Nick on his knees in front of me, his face nuzzling my denim covered crotch, begging me to let him suck me. I could barely think straight and was actually considering saying to hell with this meeting. To hell with it all. I would graciously give this all up for just 20 fucking minutes with my boyfriend without us supposing to be somewhere else.

What I did next I can not explain nor understand. I pulled him back up. Got him off his knees, where we both so desperately wanted him to be, and ran my fingers through his short blonde hair, telling him we had to go. A meeting to be at. Yes. I have officially declared myself insane. Completely wacko. An absolute idiot. How many people have had the opportunity of a lifetime that I just wasted? Nick Carter on his knees, begging you to let him make you cum. Fuck I was stupid. I did the only thing I could do at that moment. I pulled him close, kissed him with everything I had in me. He grasped onto the hem of my shirt and forcefully pinned me against the wall. His kiss becoming more urgent, more desperate. He completely ravaged my mouth and left me breathless. His tongue was relentless, licking every inch of my mouth, prodding my mouth and bringing me to the brink of insanity, which wasn't far because I was already nearly there.

"Whoa." I exclaimed when he was done. I couldn't even form complete sentences.

"Just think about that Kev." He whispered, staring directly into my eyes.

"Think about what Nicky?" I questioned. I wasn't sure if I was just dumb, or it was the effect of his mouth on mine, his tongue doing delicious things to me.

"Think about how that WOULD have felt on your cock, licking and sucking you. Bringing you so much pleasure that you'd thought you'd have gone to heaven. Making you cum so hard that you pass out because it feels so good. Think about that baby." He whispered almost menacingly, his eyes gleaming. He kissed me one more time before walking out of the bathroom, leaving me stunned and harder than I'd ever been before. FUCK FUCK FUCK. How the hell was I supposed to go into that room, sit with the other guys, with the management firm and pretend that the last, I checked my watch, 15 minutes didn't happen. FUCK FUCK FUCK! I walked over to the sink and turned on the tap, splashing water on my overheated face. I looked at myself in the mirror and had to laugh. I looked like shit. My face was red, my lips were all swollen and my eyes were glazed over. They would totally know something was up. Oh well. It was now or never. I walked out of the bathroom and into the board room as best I could. I mean, I was carrying around quite the package in my boxers, my dick still hard and not showing any signs of cooperating any time soon. Fuck it. I was 28 years old, if I had a tent pitched , I fucking had a tent. They'd deal with it.

I was going to kill Nick. Slowly. Tortuously. Mercilessly. Damn him. Throughout the whole interview he teased me. Mocked me. Embarrassed me. Okay, so no one else knew he was doing it but we both did and he knew how he was effecting me. Everything was fine until he started doodling. But then he just took the pen he was using, leaned back and started the game. He'd roll it around in his mouth for a while. And then started to lick it, all the while smiling at me. When no one was looking he pointed at me and then the pen, indicating that that pen would have been me and showed me what he could have been doing to me in the bathroom had I not stopped him. I vowed that as soon as this meeting was over I was going to grab him and teach him a lesson. Teach him what it was like to piss me off. Get me going. No more Mr. Nice Guy here...he was going to pay. And he smiled at me, as if he could read my thoughts. Winked and licked his lips. If I wasn't mistaken, he actually looked like he wanted it, was hoping that I'd retaliate. Was looking forward to it.

And finally the meeting was over. The second they closed their brief cases I jumped up and bolted towards the door. On my way out I grabbed Nick and pulled him up by the collar of his shirt, leaving Bri, AJ, D and the three executives in the room staring at us confused and shocked. "I need to talk to Nick alone" I growled as I slammed the door behind me, dragging him down the corridor.

"Ummm...Kev?" He said trying not to laugh. I could hear it in his voice and it made me madder. I stopped at the elevator and waited for it to get up to where we were. He was just staring at me, blue eyes open wide with wonder. "What's going on?" He asked softly. I hadn't even looked at him. Hadn't even really said anything to him directly.
"I don't want to hear it Nicky." I said between clenched teeth. I couldn't look at him. I knew i'd melt as soon as I did.

The elevator doors opened and much to my relief it was empty. I stepped in and saw Nick wasn't following me. Reaching out I grabbed his shirt and pulled him in, causing him to stumble and fall into me. I pressed L for Lobby and when we'd gotten to a safe height from the ground, around 10 I stepped forward and slammed the STOP button, jerking the elevator to a halt. "What the fuck?" Nick mumbled under his breath looking at me. It was then I turned to him.

"Do you have any fucking idea what you were doing to me in there?" I asked him cornering him against the wall. "Licking..." I licked his neck which caused him to close his eyes and roll his head back. "And sucking", I sucked his Adam's apple, knowing that drove him wild. "And tonguing that god damned fucking pen" I traced my tongue over his skin. "Knowing it should have been my cock." I cupped his face in my hands and waited for him to open his eyes. When he did we just stared at each other.

"Kev.. I've never seen your eyes that shade of green before. They're almost glowing baby..." He moaned, rocking his hips into mine.

"I've never been this turned on before Nick. NEVER. Fuck that was so cruel Nicky... Your tongue should have been doing that to me... I was jealous of that pen. It got to be in your mouth, on your lips..." I couldn't take it anymore and leaned down, forcefully pressing my mouth against his, shoving my tongue into his mouth like a man possessed. I needed him now. There was no way I was waiting until we got back to the hotel. My hands which were previously tangled in his hair, wrapped around his neck trailed down to his jeans and urgently undid his belt, followed by the button on his jeans. "I need you Nicky. I fucking need you so much." I moaned, frustrated when the zipper wouldn't come down. "What the fuck is wrong with this?" I cried.

"My cock is in the way. It's so hard, too big..." Nick said laughing, swatting my hands away and undoing them. When he got the zipper down he smiled. "Now there Kev. Continue." I could see him teasing me in his eyes and I laughed.

I slipped my hand into his jeans, into his boxers and gently stroked him, loving how he hardened even more in my hand. "God Nicky..you feel so good. So good.." I whispered as I steadily jacked him off, his cock still enclosed in his clothing.

He growled and started thrusting into my hand. I looked at his face to watch the expression of pure ecstasy turn into one of almost painful pleasure. I couldn't wait anymore. I stepped away from him and saw his eyes fly open, heard him moan in disappointment.

"Kev? What are you doing?" He asked confused. I just smiled at him and forcefully turned him around, chest against the wall. I grabbed onto the belt loops of his jeans and tugged them to his ankles, bringing his boxers with them.

I had wanted our first time to be slow...beautiful...romantic. Something that we'd always remember as the most amazing night of our lives. Fuck it. We had the rest of our lives to do slow, romantic, beautiful. I wanted him and I wanted him now. Hot..raw...passionate..desperate. FUCKING. I didn't want to make love to him, I wanted to fuck him. To feel his skin against mine, sweaty and hot. To hear him moan for me, call out my name like it was the only word he knew, the only thing he needed to know. To feel his skin as I slapped his ass forcefully while thrusting in and out of it. And I wanted it all in the elevator. I couldn't have been better had I planned it. It all started on an elevator. With one single touch on an elevator we came to the scene that was being played out right now. This had to happen in an elevator...it was like an omen. It was where our feelings were first shared, so it would be where beginning of the rest of our lives together would start as well.

As I pulled his tee shirt off and threw it across the shaky car I saw the new tattoos on Nick's back and moaned. I loved his tattoos, they were so sexy. So beautiful. Licking the scripted KAOS tattoos down his spine I remembered that day with everyone in the elevator. THIS ELEVATOR. When he was behind me and I wanted to throw him up against the wall and fuck him. Now here was my chance. Only difference was that Bri, AJ and the security were nowhere to be seen. Realizing that I wondered what I was waiting for. "Do you want it Nicky?" I asked, knowing he knew what I was referring to.
"Yeah Kev. I want it...so bad. I need it. Fucking do it." He moaned, head thrown back resting on my shoulder.

"Say it Nicky.. I want to hear you say it." My hands were on his ass, kneading and playing with the silky softness of the skin.

"Shit Kev... Please... Fuck me."

That was all I needed. I undid my pants with one hand while running the fingers of my other hand up and down his spine, landing on his the crack of that beautiful round ass. I let my jeans drop to the ground and moaned as the cool air caressed my throbbing cock. I pulled my tee shirt over my head and leaned in to press myself against Nick. Bare chest to bare back, bare cock to bare ass. I just stood there for a second and pulled his mouth in for a soft and sweet kiss. A kiss full of love and promise. He wrapped his arms as best he could around my neck and arched into my touch. I had never loved anyone as much as I did him at that minute. I knew my heart was completely his and wouldn't have it any other way. "I love you Nicky." I moaned as our kiss broke.
"I love you too Kevin." He smiled at me, his hand reaching back and landing on my erection. "Now please...fuck me."

"Gladly" I murmured into his neck as I spread his cheeks to reveal his sweetness. The place I had only dreamed that I would be able to touch, to own, to experience. SHIT SHIT SHIT. Suddenly my mind cleared and I realized that I was so not prepared for this. I didn't have anything to use as lube so as not to rip his insides apart. Shit! "Nicky... I don't have lube." I cried out in frustration.

"Fuck kev..." He groaned laughing. "Go into my case, open the zipper on the side." He said pointing to the drawing case, a look of exasperation on his face. I did just that and saw a travel sized bottle of baby oil. To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I just looked back and forth between him and the bottle. "What the hell?" I asked smiling at the look of amusement on his face.

"I never leave home without the case. I always always have it with me. And you NEVER know when...opportunities are going to present themselves." He said waving his arms indicating the elevator. "Someone's gotta be prepared."
I LOVE THIS MAN! I was wrong before when I said I was the man. NICK'S THE MAN!

He had turned to face me at this point and pulled me in for a kiss, grabbing the bottle of oil from my hand. While he had distracted me with his mouth, his tongue, he had successfully opened the bottle and squirted some on his hands. He then brought that hand down and coated my cock with the slippery liquid, rubbing it in making me moan. His hands felt so good on me, I could feel myself sinking into the orgasm I so desperately needed. And then his hand stilled and he turned back around, facing the wall, spreading his legs enough so that I could fit between them. "Now please Kev. I'm not going to ask again. FUCK ME." His voice sounded throaty, almost desperate.

I jumped and giggled at the sight before me. He was just so sexy...so beautiful. I moved in behind him and began to kiss my way across his shoulders. I placed my cock at his opening and gently pushed my way into his waiting warmth. I felt him tense up slightly and I paused, not wanting to hurt him. "Nicky...are you okay?"

He replied through gritted teeth. "More Kev. Please...keep going."

And I did. Until I was completely engulfed in his tightness, in pure ecstasy. I had to stop and control myself. If I wasn't careful I knew I was going to cum, and I didn't want that. I didn't want this over before it even really began. I wanted to enjoy every minute of this. I wanted him to enjoy every minute of it too. I took a deep breath and got myself under control. I could feel Nick breathing heavy and for the first time, realized that I was inside of him. We were completely connected, one person. With that thought I looked down and moaned, the sight of being completely engulfed in that beautiful ass enough to make my eyes flutter shut. "Nicky...how does it feel baby?" I whispered into his hear, feeling him shiver.

"So good Kev. You feel so good. At first it was awkward, but now...I feel complete." He moaned reaching back and grabbing onto my ass to pull me closer. That caused me to sink in just a bit deeper, grazing his prostate, causing a jolt of electricity to course through us both. "Shit." I heard him mumble.

With that one movement I decided it was time. I pulled almost the entire way out, feeling him clench around me, and then thrust back in hard, pressing him harder into the wall. "Fuck Kev..that's it. Like that." He moaned, bracing himself on the wall. And so I began to pound into Nick forcefully, each thrust harder than the last. I couldn't think of anything outside of that elevator, how good and tight he felt around my cock, milking me expertly, bringing me closer and closer to what I knew was going to be the best orgasm of my life. He moved slightly so that he could bring one arm between himself and the wall, tending to his own painfully hard dick. Had my hands not been firmly rooted to his hips, which I grasped tightly for leverage as I drove myself in him time after time, I would have gladly jacked him off, but I couldn't. Nothing could move my hands from their position, I loved the power I was holding over him at that moment. With every other thrust I was hitting his prostate, knowing how good it felt, knowing how it was driving him to the brink of sexual insanity. I could feel it in the way his body shaked, could hear it in the desperate pleas that were escaping his mouth. He was begging now, "harder Kev. Fuck... Give it to me... Right there... Your cock feels so good baby..."

I loved how he was talking me through this. Telling me what felt good and what else he wanted to do to me, what he wanted me to do to him. "You like my ass Kev? Does it feel as good as you hoped? As sweet as you dreamed?"

"Fuck Nick... It's so hot. Your tight little ass is so nice around my cock." I could feel my balls tightening, a sure sign that I was about to cum. "I'm gonna cum Nick." I warned him, hoping he was close too. "Keeevvvv" He let out a long moan, his hand moving faster and faster on his erection, his fingers grazing his balls lightly. "I want to cum with you... Give me just another second. This feels too good..." His voice had a slight whine to it and I realized that no matter what he said, that voice was sexy. Whether he was whining, moaning, groaning, singing or just talking, his voice was pure sex.

"Come on Nicky...cum with me. I want you to cum so bad... Just fucking cum all over yourself...all over the Jive elevator baby." I was growling in his ear at this point, my face dripping with sweat, face tight with concentration. My vision was blurring slightly from holding onto this orgasm which I knew was going to rock me. And then he started to moan.

"I'm there baby... FUCK." He roared, then yelling my name so loud I knew they could probably hear us all 60 floors up and 10 floors down. "KKKKEEEVVVVVIIIIIINNNNNN."

Just hearing the passion in his voice, the way it just rolled off his tongue like honey I came hard and fast, filling him with the seed of our passion. I couldn't help but bite down on his shoulder, but not after I screamed his name over and over louder than anything. I swear all the windows in the building would shatter at the pitch I reached. Even Howie would have been impressed. I kept cumming and cumming, all the while never slowing my pace, hitting his prostate sharply and he screamed again cumming a second time at the sensations of my cock on his prostate and the cum that was still spurting inside of him.

I honestly thought I'd never stop cumming. I don't know if there is a record timing someone's orgasm, but I swear I rivaled that time. He milked each last drop out of me and when I was finally finished I slipped out of him, sinking to the floor. I couldn't stand any more, my whole body reduced to a quivering bowl of Jell-O. He sank down beside me on the floor of the elevator and pulled me into his arms. "Jesus Kevin. That was fucking unbelievable." He whispered, softly kissing my lips.

I tried to talk. Really I did, but for some reason the words wouldn't come. I just looked at him and smiled. I had never felt that good before. It had never felt that good before. For the first time I knew what it felt like to have truly become one with someone. Not only had our bodies merged in that elevator, our souls had. Very slowly our breathing returned to normal and the world around me came back into focus. We just lied there in that elevator, bodies entwined, heartbeats synchronized. I leaned up on my elbows and kissed him, a promise of our love. I laughed as I thought about the looks on everyone's faces as I grabbed Nick and stormed out of that boardroom. As if he knew what I was thinking Nick began to laugh too. "I wonder what they're thinking right now. What they're doing." He said biting his bottom lip playfully. Oh god how I loved this man. I loved everything about him and he was all mine. I couldn't believe how lucky I was to have found him. To be able to love him an d be loved by him in return.

"I bet AJ knows what we're doing." I said truthfully causing us both to break down into giggles again. Groaning, we both got up and began to redress ourselves as best we could. When we were presentable Nick

pushed the button to reactivate the elevator and we shared one last kiss before hitting the Lobby. We weren't sure what we'd find when we got there, so we wanted to relish the last few minutes of our post- orgasmic bliss.

Stepping out of the elevator we were shocked by the sight we were met with. AJ was sitting on a bench reading a magazine, trying to look interested in the article. Probably would have been a lot more convincing had the magazine been upright. "Bone. What's up?" Nick said calmly, patting AJ on the shoulder.

"I don't know man. You tell me?" He smiled at Nick and then smirked at me.
I blushed. I know I was blushing. If he couldn't see the fact that we'd just fucked on that elevator, he could probably smell the sex in the air.

"What are you doing Bone?" I questioned, trying to take the focus from Nick and I.

"Well, Bri and D think you two have gone completely insane...I'm talking calling in the white jackets and padded rooms crazy. So they left your horny asses behind. I stayed to give you both a ride back to the hotel." He winked at both of us and got up from his chair. As he was walking towards the lobby doors he turned slightly and spoke over his shoulder. "Took you guys fucking long enough.. I've been waiting for almost an hour and a half for you guys." When we saw him shake his head Nick and I both looked at each other and giggled. That caused AJ to stop and glare at us, which in turned brought forth a fresh round of laughter from us. Subconsciously, I reached out for Nick's hand finding it right at my side, as if he was waiting for me to reach for it. Walking out of the building we shielded our eyes to the bright light of the sun. It was the start of a brand new day. A brand new life. My life with Nick. I don't ever remember being this peaceful, this happy. We walked to the car, hand and hand only stopping as he was about to climb in. "I told you so." I said suddenly, stopping to smirk at Nick.

He paused and straightened back up, looking me in the eye. "You told me what?" He questioned.

"In the elevator. Said you were gonna thank me for teasing you in the bar that night. Told me if it were just us in the elevator you were gonna tear my clothes off me and fuck me."

I could tell he was thinking back to when he said it. When I saw recognition flash across his features I smiled. "I asked you what made you think that it would be you fucking me." He shook his head and blushed, biting his lower lip. "Told you so." And at that I reached up, in broad daylight, with AJ only 5 feet away from us and pulled Nick close to me so that we were nose to nose. I felt Nick take a deep breath and reach for my hips, bringing us even closer together.

"Next time..." He promised, before our lips met, his mouth completely covering mine in a kiss that made me weak. It always amazed me how he affected me. My whole body reacted from his touch. I moaned as his tongue stroked mine and honestly didn't care who could see us. I wanted the entire world to know we were in love. It wasn't until we heard AJ clear his throat that we pulled away, completely breathless. "Get a room boys." He called honking the horn for us to get in. We both giggled before climbing into AJ's car. I was so happy that AJ knew. Next it was time to tell Howie and Brian. I wondered if it would go as well as I hoped. I had no idea how to break it to Brian. Howie I wasn't worried about, but Brian was family. It had to be done with care and precision. As AJ peeled out of the parking lot and I felt Nick's fingers laced with mine as we both sat in the back seat, I thought about the past two months and sighed happily. Two words ringing through my ears. The most profound and wisest piece of advice that I had ever been given. Just feel.

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