Author:Jules - mailto:slash_me_baby@yahoo.com

Part:1/1

Backstories of Fetish: http://boyslash.just-in-dreams.com/jules.htmlor http://www.geocities.com/tangobaby44/julesseries.htmor
http://boybandfantasies.homestead.com/JulesStories.html

Series:Letterboys in Love (Sub series of Fetish) {Series will have 5 Stories in total}

Rating: NC-17

Pairing:Letterboys (AJ/JC)

Warning:Slash warning, bigroupal warning. Schmoop warning.

Disclaimer:This is all fiction for entertainment purposes. I'm not assuming anything.

Notes:This has been taken from Fetish but you don't necessarily need to have read or follow Fetish to read it. A few people asked for more insight on JC and AJ after they left Stages in part 27 of Fetish, and this is what I came up with. The first page or so was lifted directly from "I Want You To Want Me", but I added a bit more depth to it. More on what they were thinking and so forth. As Fetish is primarily Nick/Kev, I skimmed over the letterboys quite a bit. This takes that conversation and furthers it... So no.. I didn't plagiarize myself! LMAO. Ooh, and it sort of got a bit more emotional than I was going for. So be warned of the schmoop.

Introductions and Life Stories
by Jules

"Do you want to go somewhere more quiet? Like my place?" It came out breathy and AJ couldn't believe that he'd actually said it. Granted, he was dying to get JC back to his place and possibly see where things would proceed, but it didn't have to be tonight. Tonight, all he wanted to do was talk to the older man. Find out everything he possibly could about him. And judging from the expression on JC's face, he didn't look all too impressed.

JC dropped AJ's hand immediately, jerking back as if it had burned him. That was not the reaction he was expecting and he wasn't sure if he liked it all too much. He saw the confusion in AJ's eyes and moved away. "Are you looking for a quick fuck? To get off on what I've just told you?" JC thought AJ had been serious when he said he was looking for a relationship, to stop fucking around and settle down. Seeing that he'd just practically propositioned him after a half hour of talking contradicted everything the younger man had professed earlier. JC was severely disappointed that it had come to this.

AJ realized how his words must have sounded and relented. "Oh god no. Man, that's not what I was getting at at all. Fuck JC, I just told you that I'm not looking for a quick fuck or one night stand and I meant that. All I'm saying is that this isn't the place I think we should be having this conversation. I can't exactly hear you and I'm sure you don't want to be screaming all your personal business for everyone to hear." He reached over and took JC's hand in his own, stopping him from trembling. "I really want to hear more about ...how kinky you are." With that, AJ's lips curled into a sexy smirk and he wiggled his eyebrows. "But not here."

Hearing AJ's motives for leaving put JC at ease and he felt his whole body relax. AJ's hands felt great in his own, soft and gentle. This was definitely not the reaction he'd been expecting when telling him about his sexual preferences, but it was a great sign and made JC want to tell him more. He'd already told him more than he'd ever told any other possible lover and that had to mean something. Plus, he could see that AJ had a few questions and really just wanted to talk to him about it. Up until he'd become closer with Nick and Kevin, and subsequently Kyle and Billy, he hadn't really talked about this part of his life with anyone. So having someone else who wasn't directly involved in the lifestyle would be good practice for when he told the others. IF he told the others. But mostly, it looked as though they may have a chance at something. And that chance was what JC could only hope for.

"Okay. Let's go then." They stood up and stretched, smiling at one another. "But we'll go to my place. That way if you're disgusted or disappointed, rather than having to kick me out you can just leave and it won't be awkward ..or more awkward than it already would be." JC was surprised when AJ stepped in closer, cupping his face between his hands tenderly. JC could feel the goose bumps cover his body at the contact, his skin feeling like it were on fire.

"I don't think I could ever be disgusted OR disappointed in anything about you. I've wanted you for far too long for that." AJ admitted, brushing his lips softly over JC's, barely giving the other man time to react before pulling away. He didn't know what possessed him to do something so bold, so brash but seeing the dreamy 

"In case I never get the chance again, I just wanted to know what it would feel like that once."

AJ grinned, pulling him towards the stairs and the exit. They didn't even bother to tell anyone where they were heading knowing that Kevin and Nick would definitely understand. Thinking about it, he knew that they had set it up. Kevin talking to him about JC the week before, asking what he thought about him. If he found him attractive and whether he would be interested if he had the chance. And as he remembered back, Nick had followed JC out the door, only to be found a few hours later not divulging where he'd been or who he had been with. If AJ knew his best friends as well as he knew he did, they had set this up from the get go. He made a mental note to thank them profusely the next time he saw them. Quite possibly with gifts. Large, expensive gifts. They hailed a cab that was sitting outside and AJ heard JC give the driver his address. Leaning back on the seat, their heads turned to face one another and a smile was shared, their fingers still locked. JC had grabbed his hand as they were weaving through the thick crowd, and not wanting to get separated, AJ had tightened the grip as they walked. Now, as they were sitting in the cab, alone, they found their hands still clasped tightly together. AJ failed to loosen his grip.

The ride back to his place seemed as though it were taking forever and JC had to remind himself that this was actually happening. That AJ McLean was physically sitting beside him in the cab, holding his hand and sitting so close that their legs were brushing against one another as the driver took sharp turns down the familiar streets to his house. The last thing he had expected was to be out clubbing with the man of his recent fantasies, not to mention taking him home to ...well that was still to be determined. As much as he wanted to keep it PG for the night, take things slowly, JC knew that the second that AJ initiated anything, he'd probably drop his pants and spread his legs in earnest. Not that he did that for just anyone. He didn't. Just the special ones, and AJ was definitely special. As the cab came to a stop, JC leaned up to give the driver money, startled when he'd seen AJ beat him to it. "It's okay I got it.." He said, giving AJ a twenty for the money he'd used to pay. 

"It's okay. I got it. You can make me breakfast." AJ leaned in and kissed JC, the pressure not overwhelming but enough to elicit a moan from the older man. The promise in his voice was nearly enough to make JC drag him up to his bedroom and strip him naked.

"Shit... Ummm..."

AJ laughed and kissed the other man's nose playfully. "You are so fucking adorable when you're all hot and bothered." And he was. AJ was having a hard time restraining himself from attacking JC. Just how aroused he was, the fact that his eyes were glazed and cheeks were pink was enough to make AJ fall harder for him. He didn't know how someone could look so sweet and innocent and tempting at the same time. He could only imagine how JC would look naked, sprawled out before him as he fucked him in every way possible. That thought made AJ smile, JC's voice breaking him from the vision.

"Coming in?"

"Yeah."

They entered the large house and AJ took a moment to look around, amazed at how beautiful it was. If ever he was to picture what JC's place would be decorated like, how it would look, this was exactly it. It was simple yet elegant. Beautiful. Like him. "You want a tour?" JC asked, smiling as AJ nodded. JC showed the younger man the entire house, stalling just slightly. As much as he wanted to have the conversation with him, he wanted to put it off, his nerves getting the better of him. Finally, they'd returned back to where they started and both men were looking at each other. "Wine?"

AJ shook his head. "Just you and me. Let's finish that conversation."

JC's favourite room in the house was in the back, a room where he spent most of his time. It was where he had his piano and did most of his composing and writing. There was also a couch and chair along the far wall, a fireplace and was probably the most lived in room in the entire house. That was where he took AJ, the knowledge that he'd never allowed anyone else in that room before not lost on him. JC wondered silently what was going on with him. He'd never told anyone as much as he'd told this man, he'd brought him into his private sanctum without blinking. It was just too much for his mind to wrap around, and if JC wasn't careful he was certain that he was falling hopelessly and desperately in love with this man. And for the first time, he wasn't scared one single bit. In fact, he was exhilarated by it.

"This room is beautiful." AJ noticed that there was a different feel to this room than the rest of the house and he figured that this was probably JC's private room. Butterflies took flight in his stomach as he realized the importance of being brought here and as he tightened his grip in JC's hand he felt the older man squeeze 

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

Silently, they took pillows from the couch and chair and set them up on the floor to make themselves comfortable. JC started a fire while AJ settled himself in, enjoying the simple domesticity of it. They sat close, but without touching and both men felt something weighing down on their chests that they couldn't explain. The silence became deafening and while both men knew that there was so much to say, neither were sure how to start. Where to start. Finally, JC spoke up.

"I'm sure that you have a lot of questions. So why don't you just ask them and we can go from there." He didn't even bother to hide the tremble in his voice. It wasn't the time for false bravados, he had to be completely honest, not just with AJ but with himself as well.

"How long have you been doing that? The master/slave thing?" AJ's eyes were curious and his voice was soft. He didn't want to say anything that would upset or offend JC. It was clear that the older man was nervous enough as it was, the last thing AJ needed was to scare him away.

"Oh god..." JC wiped his face with his hands, thinking back. "About four or five years I'd say. It's been forever and I can barely remember how things were before I'd met Lynz and we'd started what we're doing." JC's eyes locked on AJ's and he saw nothing but compassion and curiosity, so he continued talking. "I'd met her at a party through friends. We'd started dancing and she mentioned something about how hot I'd look in a leather collar and nothing else while she spanked me. At first I thought she was crazy, but I couldn't get that image out of my mind. Then one night I was at some club and she was there. I saw her with a few other people. It was some place that a friend of a friend had told us about and ...well it was my first time in a S & M bar. The more I watched her, the more intrigued I was. So I approached her and said that I'd like very much for her to dress me in a leather collar and nothing else while she spanked me. She laughed and told me to keep my pretty boy pop star day job." JC giggled at the memory, shaking his head. "It took some convincing but she finally decided to take a chance with me. And here we are, five years later."

AJ was shocked, it clearly evident on his face. He moved in closer to JC, eager to hear more of the story. "And?"

"And so I visit her at her house. She has a dungeon set up in her basement. Similar to the Lair at Fetish but not exactly. It's designed how SHE likes it, what she wants. I usually go when we're having down time, but there have been times when I've been on the road and I've flown her in, or come home on a day off to see her. There are times that we go out, but she's very selective in where we go. It's hard for us to blend in, with me being who I am and all."

"Is it like the way Kevin and Nick are with..."

"No." JC knew instantly where AJ was going with that and wanted to set the record straight. "That type of relationship is very rare within our lifestyle. Mainly because it doesn't exactly work out most of the time. There is always an element of jealousy, emotions getting too much in the way. I was really shocked when Kevin and Nick had told me that they're in a relationship with Kyle and Billy outside of the club as well as inside. Plus hearing how long it's been going on, it's something that I never would have expected to work out. With two it's hard, almost impossible, so I can't even imagine how it is with the four of them. It's strange to see them in the two different worlds. I mean, inside of the club you would never know how deep things run outside. They have somehow managed to not let it interfere. Nick and Kevin discipline them very well when they misbehave, as well as reward them when it's deserved. Usually it's hard to keep the worlds separate, but they somehow have found a happy medium. So no, Lynz and I are not involved outside of our roles."

For some reason that knowledge sent a flash of relief throughout AJ's body and he relaxed against the cushions beneath him. He was now laying on his side, facing JC who was also on his side. Their bodies were mere inches apart and he could faintly feel JC's body heat between them. "How much do you know about what goes on in Fetish?" AJ needed to know his involvement with Nick and Kevin, with the club before going any further. When he saw the other man blush, AJ felt his pulse quicken.

"P..pretty much everything." JC couldn't bear to look into AJ's eyes, fearful of the disgust and hatred he might find there. He was shocked when he felt a finger raise his chin, forcing him to look into AJ's eyes. 

"Pretty much everything as in what? You've been there?" When JC nodded, slightly embarrassed he continued with his questions. "Did you fuck them? Did they fuck you?" He wasn't sure if he wanted to hear if JC had fucked or been fucked by Nick or Kevin. If he really thought about it, it wouldn't have made THAT much of a difference. It wasn't as if HE hadn't been fucked by Kevin, but ...it was just weird and he couldn't explain it. Knowing that someone else had been with JC before him, one of his best friends sent an icy chill straight through his heart and into his stomach. He was relieved when JC shook his head.

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. I know the rules of the club and you're not supposed to talk about what goes on there." AJ put his fingers to JC's lips, moaning as they were engulfed in the wet heat of JC's mouth. Pulling the now moistened digits from JC's mouth, he traced JC's lips with them, garnering a moan from the older man.

"I want to tell you. I think ... I need to tell you Aje. Just so we're both clear on things." He saw AJ nod and continued to talk. "I sucked Kevin, and then Nick and I 69ed. But besides that and kissing, that's it. I mean, with Kyle and Billy it was a different story, but in regards to Nick and Kevin, nothing went that far."

"Did you want to?" AJ held his breath as the silence grew.

JC took a deep breath and swallowed before speaking. "I won't lie to you AJ. They're both beautiful men. I find them both attractive and very sexual. Of course I wanted to ...but my life isn't over because I didn't. If sleeping with them would have done anything to fuck up what we might have, I'm glad that we didn't because I think it wouldn't have been worth it."

AJ felt his stomach flip and his heart speed up considerably. Leaning in, he took JC's lips in a gentle kiss, running his fingers through his shoulder length locks. They rolled slightly so that AJ was half on top of JC, kissing him thoroughly. "Thank you." AJ whispered as he pulled away, taking in JC's disheveled state. His eyes were half closed and his cheeks pink, AJ had never seen him look more beautiful.

"For what?"

"For being you."

JC blushed, turning his head to the side so that he could hopefully regain his composure. AJ's gaze was intense and he could feel himself getting lost in it. In the sensations of being there in his embrace. 

"How many times have you been there?"

"Four."

AJ's eyes were wide, clearly not expecting that number. "Four?"

"Well.... There was that first night. We didn't know who's club it was. Jules said that it was owned by good friends of hers and failed to tell Lynz who it was. But then again, she doesn't exactly know about me ..she knows Lynz has a slave named Joshua but that's it. So we went and Lynz instantly spotted Kyle and sent me over to play with him. That's when Kevin came down and we found out that he and Nick were the owners. That night I only played with the pets downstairs. The second time was when Nick and Kevin suggested I come to the club so we could talk about ...well you know." JC blushed and AJ smiled showing him that it was okay to continue. Their hands were still entwined with one another, AJ still half laying on top of JC. "But all we did was talk and we stayed on the main floor. I was there as JC, not Joshua."

AJ began to understand the difference between Joshua and JC. He kept that filed away for future reference. "And? The third and fourth time?" 

"Well... The third time was ...well that's when it all really started. That's when I went and Kevin had me play with the pets while he watched. Lynz was occupied with Nick. Then things got switched around. But you have to know, that I never fucked either of them." JC's hand went up to stroke AJ's face, pulling him close for a gentle kiss.

"I believe you."

"And well ...the last time Lynz sent me over as a present to Kevin. Apparently Nick had run into her while they were at Unmentionable Pleasures and they got to talking. Nick wanted to surprise Kevin and Kyle, with me."

The expression on AJ's face was priceless and JC couldn't help but giggle. "It's not something that Lynz usually does, but she had made a counter offer to Nick and he couldn't refuse. And then SHE couldn't refuse and it was all worked out. But that night it wasn't anything too involved." He wanted AJ to know that it wasn't always about actual sex. Penetration. He could see that AJ was still trying to figure out what he was talking about so he explained it. "Aje. It's not always about fucking. You have to know that. I mean, yes, sex is a big part of it, but not the only part. There are other ways of reaching that ultimate level of sexual release, and it's all in what you like and how far you're willing to go."

JC shook his head. "No. It's about power. About control and domination. Sometimes pain but always pleasure."

It was something that AJ was going to have to get used to. He wasn't completely naive to the lifestyle, but he'd never been this close to it, never wanted to. Even that night at Fetish had shown him a lot more than he'd ever thought, and he knew that was just the tip of the iceberg. He'd been given a crash course in what went on there, and now he wanted to know more. JC made him want to know more, to understand what made him want to do it week after week, night after night. JC's question threw him off completely. "Have you ever been to Fetish?" His eyes flew open while his jaw dropped.

"Huh?"

"Fetish. Have you ever been there?"

AJ was confused, he thought JC knew that he had. "You don't know?"

"Yeah. But I thought I'd have you tell me... Didn't want to assume I knew everything you know?" JC shrugged and smiled nervously.

Sighing, AJ tried to will his nerves to calm down and for the bile to dissipate from where it had risen in this throat. "Yeah. I've been there twice."

"Twice?"

"The first time was way back in the day. Before Nick was ever there. I didn't know that Kevin owned it.. Fuck. He was right upstairs the whole time I was there and I had no idea. I'd gone with a few friends, needing something different than the other places I usually went. I was still trying to deal with the fact that I was bi and not knowing where to go to just ...face it. You know?" He waited until JC nodded before continuing. "So I went and ended up messing around with one of Billy's friends."

"What?" JC asked.

AJ smiled, remembering that night vividly. "Yeah. From what I've heard, the night that I went there was the night they found Billy. Kevin had been looking for a third for Nick when he finally made it to the club. I was in the corner with a few girls and guys and this hot chick named Destiny came over and joined us. Well turns out she was there with Billy and they'd realized that it wasn't going to work for them. Kevin had sent Kyle down to find someone for Nick and he found Billy."

"Wow. That is insane." JC laughed.

"I know. What are the odds right?" JC shook his head, silently answering AJ's questions and their eyes met, causing both of them to pause. A moment passed between them and their lips met in a soft, gentle crush. This was one of the things that both men enjoyed, the quiet moments in between where they would kiss and explore each other's bodies leisurely. They would talk for a little while and then make out, taking pleasure in the simplicity of it. And just as slowly as they had come together in the kiss, they pulled away and continued the conversation, picking up exactly where they had left off.

"And? What else happened that night?" 

"Well, it was the first time I'd ever been with another man. I mean, I couldn't deny how hot women get me, but men seemed to do it just as much, if not more. Then the second time I'd gone to Fetish was when Nick and Kevin invited me, to tell me about them and the club."

"Did YOU fuck either of them?" JC's eyes were wide and full of curiosity.

"Kevin fucked me." AJ felt JC's dick twitch against his leg. 

"Really?" The image of Kevin and AJ together ran through JC's mind and he couldn't help but react. It was definitely something he wouldn't have minded to see. 

"Yeah." 

"That would have been so hot." And with that, JC rolled them so that he was on top of AJ, his hands on either side of his head as leverage. He felt AJ moan beneath him as their groins rocked together, both men hardening considerably from the friction. JC leaned down, placing kisses all over AJ's face and neck, while mumbling against his skin. "I would have liked to watch that... You and Kevin... Together..."

AJ growled, rocking his hips up. "Yeah? Oh god.. It was fucking hot Jayce. Kevin, hovering over me while I 

"You were bound?" JC stopped all movement, his face a mask of shock.

"Yeah. My arms were bound to the bed."

Hope that AJ might be interested in his lifestyle flooded JC's entire body and he couldn't help but sigh, leaning down to kiss AJ hard. He had never expected to get this close to the other man, but to be able to share this with him seemed as though it was too good to be true. The kiss broke and he rolled back to the side, remaining curled up with AJ. "Wow. I just ...never thought."

"Me either. It wasn't something I thought I would be into, but Kevin was great about it. I mean, I'm going to be honest with you, I've never been in a relationship with a man. Women, I've dated, men not so much. I mean, the most emotional fuck I've ever had with a man was Kevin that night. Usually there's no feelings in it, nothing at all. It's just getting off and that's it. Kevin was different. He was the only person I've ever cared about, and although I wasn't in love with, he's the only man I've fucked that I've loved. I just need to be honest with you."

JC nodded, understanding completely. "Tony. Tony's the only man I can say I've ever been in a relationship with. Of course, it was just us fucking around behind Bobbee's back, but I loved him. We were really close and he is one of the only people that knows so much about me. He doesn't know everything, but up until Nick and Kev, and now you, he knows more about me than anyone else. So you're not the only one." JC could see hesitation and anxiety in AJ's eyes and worried that it was all too much for him. "What are you thinking?"

Should he be honest or just say what he thought JC wanted to hear? AJ wasn't sure and he wrestled with his conscience. Seeing the concern in JC's eyes told him that he should be brutally honest with him. If ever, this was the best opportunity he was ever going to get. "I'm just worried."

"About?" JC's heart was in his throat. He didn't have a good feeling about this, which sucked because up until this point, everything was going perfectly for him.

"Me. You. Us. I mean damn Jayce, you're into some really heavy shit. I mean, I know what I've seen and I'm sure that it's practically nothing compared to what I don't know. And that's what gets you off. This is your life and I'm ...I'm so not that. How am I ever going to be enough, knowing what you really like?"

JC would have laughed if he didn't know that AJ was serious with his concerns. He could feel the younger man trembling beside him and the fact that he was so nervous amazed JC. Never in his life would he have ever thought that AJ was self conscious about himself. And never would he ever think that AJ wasn't enough for anyone. It just wasn't possible, but JC sensed that AJ needed to be assured of that. Someone had to let him in on that fact, and he was glad it was him. "Oh god baby. Is that what you're worried about?"

Neither man missed the endearment that slipped out. JC blushed and AJ's heart skipped a beat.

"You have nothing to worry about, I could never get bored with you. You have to know that one thing has nothing to do with the other. That's my biggest fear when I'm with someone, that they will think that me visiting Lynz, me living that lifestyle is because they're not giving me what I need. It's nothing like that. It's just ... You have to know that you would have nothing to worry about."

"But ..."

"Feel this." JC grabbed AJ's hand and slid it down between his pants and boxers, covering his erection gingerly. "Do you feel that?"

AJ groaned, stroking JC's erection, squeezing lightly. "Yeah. You're so fucking hard Jayce."

He couldn't help but moan, thrusting into AJ's hand which started working him faster. "Yeah baby. I am so hard, so damn hard. Wanna know why I'm hard?"

"Yeah..."

JC reluctantly removed AJ's hand from his pants and kissed his fingers softly. "Because of you. You get me that hard. Every day I'd run into you at the studio, I'd be hard as a fucking rock. Even the thought that you might be there gave me wood. You don't have to do anything to get me excited, so believe me when I say that I want you. YOU."

AJ didn't know what to say to that, glad that JC hadn't made fun of his insecurity. He wasn't used to feeling inferior in bed, but wasn't sure how to compete with whips, chains and a Mistress that got him off with pain. He wanted to know more about JC's fetishes, so he figured the best way to find out was to ask. "What are you into?"

"Yeah."

"Pain. But not harmful pain, just pleasurable pain. I'm not into the hard core shit like some are out there. Blood doesn't get me excited." 

AJ was relieved and he knew JC could see it in his eyes. It wasn't something he was sure he could deal with, and hearing that JC wasn't into that set his mind at ease.

"Spanking, bondage, stuff like that. But so you know, making love, looking directly into their eyes as you're both cumming together. That gets me off just as hard as all the other stuff. Why? Are you interested?" He saw AJ blush and decided not to push him for an answer right away. It was a lot to take and he couldn't expect too much on the first night. "I'd like to play with you. Experiment ...show you what I like and how I like it. Maybe even see what you like." His voice got really deep and JC again rolled on top of the younger man.

AJ growled deep in his chest and let his arms slip down JC's back to his ass, cupping it tightly. He felt his mouth being claimed in a deeply erotic kiss, their hips instinctively grinding together. "Would you like that Alex? You wanna play with me sometime?" JC whispered directly into his ear before taking the lobe between his teeth and biting gently. "Maybe spank me, tell me what a bad boy I am and what you'd like to do to me?"

"Fuck yeah..." AJ whimpered, grabbing JC's face between his hands roughly and bringing him down for another kiss. "So sweet ..mouth is so sweet."

"Love kissing you..."

"Want you so much..."

JC felt AJ pulling at his shirt and sat up, straddling the younger man. With their eyes locked, he pulled the shirt from his body, not missing the look of open appreciation AJ was giving him. It was a raw hunger in his eyes and JC felt goose bumps cover his skin. AJ's hands raised to outline the muscles in his chest and stomach, fingering his nipples in exploration. Sitting up, AJ raised his arms so that JC could remove his shirt as well. JC's eyes instantly were drawn to the ink on AJ's body, the black standing out on the flawless olive skin. Without thinking, he leaned down and sucked on the tattoo closest to the top of his arm, relishing how hot and sweet AJ's skin was. As he worked on AJ's arms and neck, AJ's lips attached to JC's nipple, his tongue flicking the bud to hardness. As if sharing a thought, both men lifted their mouths and stared at one another, coming together in a desperate kiss, conveying all of their emotions in that one union.

For the first time, getting JC naked and fucking him was not the only thing on AJ's mind. Usually, all he cared about was getting off. Fucking. But now, at that exact moment he was enjoying this as much as anything. Learning JC's body, tasting him and just being close to him. It was a startling revelation and caused him to stop what he was doing, pulling back slightly.

"What's wrong baby?" JC moaned, breathless.

AJ took a good look at him and ran his fingers through his wild hair. JC's lips were swollen from their kisses, his eyes glassy with desire. "You are so beautiful. Such a surprise."

JC didn't understand and let out a nervous giggle. "What?"

"You are nothing like I'd expected you to be. Just this morning I was convinced you hated me. Hated me with a passion and were this good little vanilla boy who didn't like anything but what he was supposed to. Did what people told him to."

JC wasn't sure if he should be insulted or flattered by AJ's comment, so he decided that he would listen to what else he had to say and figure it out later. "Oh."

"It's not a bad thing, really." AJ leaned up and kissed JC's chin softly. "You're just not what I expected, you're so much more and I never thought that we would end up ....whatever we are right now but we have and I'm so grateful."

JC decided on flattered and melted into AJ's embrace, his skin tingling as their bare chests pressed together. "All thanks to Nick and Kevin." 

JC bringing up Nick and Kevin reminded AJ of something that he wanted to say. "Jayce? Can I be honest with you about something?"

"Of course."

"You said 'our relationship'." AJ found himself grinning too and a kiss was shared between them. JC giggled and shook his head. "I understand. I'm the same way. When I'm single that is one thing but when I'm in a relationship, the rules are entirely different. And Lynz understands that. But you have to know, it's almost never that things get to that point, me having sex with strangers. In fact, Kyle and Billy were the first people that things had gone that far with for a long time. It's not often we go outside of her house, and when we do it's to clubs and it never goes farther than dancing and playing"

"Okay. Good. I'm glad we got that cleared up." 

JC ran a shaky hand through his hair and sighed. "You know, you're the first potential lover, potential anything that I've ever told about Lynz. No one has ever mattered enough..."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

With that, JC stood up and reached down, indicating for AJ to get up as well. When they were both in a standing position, JC wrapped his arms around AJ's waist, pulling him in for a hug. "Stay with me tonight AJ." He expected AJ to refuse, to suggest that they take some time apart to think everything through. He was shocked when the other man leaned in to gently kiss his lips.

"Okay."

The clock on the wall read 5:30. They had been talking for almost 4 hours and both men were considerably tired. Silently, JC grasped AJ's hand in his and led him towards the stairs to his bedroom, looking back just once. He stared deeply into AJ's eyes and had the only answer he needed for right then. He wanted to be there as much as JC wanted him there and that was enough for him. Everything else could be worked out in the morning. Both men stripped down to their boxers, climbing into the large bed and burrowing under the blankets. AJ reached out for JC, pulling him closer so that they could spoon together, JC in front of him. He placed a kiss on JC's neck, feeling the older man shiver under his touch.

"You really want to try this out? A relationship?" JC's voice was barely audible, the only thing alerting AJ that he'd spoken was the rumble against his chest.

"What?"

"I asked if you really want to try this out? A relationship." 

AJ's answer was to turn JC's head enough so that he could reach his mouth, look into his blue eyes. When he had JC's full attention he leaned in, covering those lips while maintaining eye contact. Pulling away he licked his lips slowly. "What do you think?"

"I think you should kiss me one more time. I might need convincing. I'm a little dense sometimes."

AJ let out a giggle and did just that, kissed JC long and hard until they both could feel it in their toes. "How was that?"

"Good for now."

Yep, JC could see everything he needed to know in AJ's eyes. The hard part was over, telling him everything. Now they just had to work on working with it, finding common ground between them.

Finis.

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