Title:		Sense of Completion
		Author: Jules - mailto:slash_me_baby@yahoo.com Part:1/1
		Pairing: Rating:				Nick Carter/Justin Timberlake NC17
		Disclaimer: This is not real, it never happened. Sense of Completion by Jules He slipped into the gymnasium virtually unnoticed. Looking around for an empty spot to sit, realizing his mistake. He had waited too long, wanted to walk in mid game so that no one would notice him, but what he didn't count on was it being THIS packed. There were no spots available and so he was forced to stand on the sidelines. That didn't bother him, he wasn't here for comfort, he was here for the game. It was the school's semi final game and if they won this one, they would be in the state championships. Justin had no idea what school this was, or what team they were playing, all that mattered was that it was basketball. High school basketball, something that he himself never got to play. A pang of regret filled his heart as he watched the kids running back and forth, fighting for possession, taking and making 3 pointers, slam dunking the ball only to receive thunderous cheers ...or boos if you were the visitors. He thought about it, and it wasn't all that much different than what he did night after night. The performance ...the game ...the applause and cheering. The girls watching as they twirled their hair on their fingers, eyeing up the players as they'd take a minute to towel off, grab a drink of water. But the difference between these players and him was that once the final buzzer sounded, once the gym cleared they were free to live their lives. They weren't scrutinized with every decision they made, every breath they took. He was. If there was one thing he would have changed about his life was that he would have wanted to experience that. High school. Basketball. The normalcy. Justin was so engrossed in the game that when someone bumped into him from behind he barely recognized it. "Sorry man." The person mumbled, stepping to the side. "No problem dude.. It happens." Justin said, half turning to smile at him. When he came face to face with the person who had nudged him, he did a double take. "Carter?" "Umm..." He stuttered, still not having looked directly at Justin. He checked to see if anyone had noticed and Justin felt his heart speed up. The home team had just made a foul shot and the crowd was going crazy, thus no one hearing Justin's cry. When Nick finally recognized Justin his mouth dropped open. "Justin?" The two men simply stared at one another, neither believing that the other was actually there. Finally Justin spoke. "What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be somewhere in the Bahamas? Writing stuff for the new CD?" Justin cringed, unable to stop himself from babbling. He couldn't believe he'd just revealed the fact that he was following their 'down time' schedule. He felt like an obsessed teeny fan. Nick chuckled at the blush that crept across Justin's cheek. Obviously the other man had been checking on line as to where they were supposed to be. With a coy smirk he answered. "Yeah well, I decided to leave a few days later. I'm going down tomorrow morning. Shouldn't YOU be somewhere in the mid-west on Tour?" "Yeah well... I came home for few days. We got a bit of a break and I needed to get away from everything. Was passing by earlier today and saw on the sign that there was a semi-final game tonight.. figured why not. It's not like I ever got to go to high school or play ball, ya know?" and as Justin saw the flash of emotion cross through Nick's eyes, he remembered that he did know. That if anyone, Nick would understand. Their lives were so similar it was scary, and still, the two had never been exceptionally close. Justin blamed it on the media, always creating this 'competition' between the two. Justin blamed it on Chris and Lance's insistence that the Backstreet Boys were sent from the devil to fuck with them, to make sure they weren't successful and ultimately were there to screw them over. Justin blamed it on the fact that he'd had a huge crush on Nick since they'd auditioned for Mickey Mouse Club together and both made it, only for Nick to decline the offer and run off to Germany with Lou and Backstreet. "Yeah, I understand Justin. You know, this would have been my high school if I had have stayed. If I hadn't have been shoved into the business, if I had have had a normal teenage life, I would have gone here. Might have even played basketball on this exact floor." Nick allowed for the 'what if's' to play in his mind, wondering how things would have been different had his parents not pushed him, wanted him to be famous and rich. When his thoughts broke he turned his head to look Justin in the eyes, a smile covering his mouth and Nick

		knew that he wouldn't change anything. Normal guy Nick Carter never would have met Justin Timberlake that sunny day at the auditions for MMC. Wouldn't have the opportunity to be able to get into the parties that NSYNC did, hang out with Justin and not look suspicious. Backstreet Nick Carter had one thing that the other Nick Carter didn't, the opportunity to sit here talking with the most beautiful person that God had ever created, all as if it were meant to be. As if he wasn't knee deep in love with him, knowing that he had no chance in hell in being with him. But it was fun to pretend. They watched the game in silence, cheering and celebrating as the home team won, advancing to the Florida State Championships for senior boys basketball. As they walked together through the crowds of people they made small talk, discussing how long Nick would be in the Bahamas and how much longer Justin's tour was. When they reached their respective cars, Justin stopped to look at Nick and took a deep breath. 'This is it Timberlake. Just do it, when are you going to have another chance like this?' Justin said to himself, praying that he didn't freak Nick out. "Ahhh Nick?" He said, cringing as Nick spun around, an odd smile on his face." "Yeah Justin?" Nick's stomach was going nuts, his breathing laboured. He'd been battling an inner conflict, wondering if he'd be too forward in suggesting they hang out after the game and in the end decided to just call it a night. But now, Justin was calling him. "Ummm... You hungry? Do you wanna go somewhere?" Nick saw Justin's eyes dart around, looking everywhere but at him. He recognized the nervousness in his voice and relaxed considerably. From the looks of it, Justin might be as interested as he was. With a sudden burst of confidence, Nick decided to test his hunch. "Alright Justin, but I have to warn you. I don't put out on the first date." He winked at him before disarming the alarm on his Cherokee. Nothing could have surprised him more than Justin's reply. "We'll see about that tomorrow morning Carter." Justin climbed into his own car, waiting for Nick to follow him. Dinner was had at a quaint Mexican restaurant that Justin always made sure to visit when he was home. It was quiet and the people who ate there didn't give a shit who you were, so they were left alone except for the waiter who periodically brought them more water and beer. By the time they'd finished their meals and were choosing desert, both men were warm from the beer and tingly from the company. Justin hadn't felt this calm, this relaxed in a long time. Knowing it was because of Nick, he decided to tell him that. "I'm having a great time Nick. I haven't felt this good in forever." Nick smiled at Justin, his cheeks reddening slightly. "Me too. I'm glad we met up at the game ya know. Definitely not how I pictured my night to be. But it's good." They stared at one another, an electric current passing through their gazes. Both knew that there was something going on between them, the chemistry too strong to ignore. "I'm gay." Justin's face was serious, his eyes downcast at his hands on his lap. When he heard a soft intake of breath, he looked up to see Nick biting his lip thoughtfully. "Good." Nick replied, standing up and grabbing his coat from the back of his chair. Justin remained still, unsure of how to react to Nick's reaction. Good. Good. He'd said good. Justin closed his eyes and tried to will his stomach to settle down and his ears to stop ringing. This hadn't gone as he'd planned. Granted, Nick hadn't gotten up and freaked out, yelling hateful words at him before stalking out. But he didn't seem overly pleased ..or affected by it at all. Perhaps Justin had misread Nick's signs. Maybe what Justin perceived as flirting, was just how Nick was. Sadly Justin took a deep breath and prayed that he wouldn't start to cry. He jerked to attention when he heard Nick clear his throat impatiently behind him. Justin half turned to face Nick, surprised when he saw a smile on his face and a twinkle in his eyes. "What? Did you want me to throw you a party? You coming Justin or what?" Still in a state of shock, Justin followed Nick towards the door, not saying a word. It wasn't until they'd gotten to his car that he realized they hadn't paid. "Oh shit. We didn't pay. Nick..." "Don't worry about it Jus. I took care of it. Howie's the Backstreet Boy with the problem of eating and ducking out on the bill, not me." Nick smiled warmly, hoping he didn't seem as nervous as he was. He'd heard rumours about Justin's sexuality but never let himself believe it, didn't want to get his hopes up only to have them crushed later on. But now, with Justin's confession, his years of unrequited love could possibly have a chance. "Aren't you going to say anything?" Justin asked, still unsure of what Nick's reaction to his revelation of being gay meant. "About what?"

		"About what I just told you. In there. About me being gay." "Congratulations? What do you want me to say?" Nick asked, running his fingers through his hair. "Never mind Nick. Forget I said anything." Justin sighed, rolling his eyes and turning to open his driver's side door. Before Justin knew it, Nick had spun him around and pinned him to the side of the car, their faces nearly inches apart. "Don't say that. I will NOT forget you said anything. You can't tell me to forget the one thing I've been waiting to hear you say for 9 years." And without letting Justin respond, Nick covered Justin's mouth with his own. When Nick felt Justin moan into the kiss he opened his mouth slightly, allowing his tongue to graze against his lips briefly. It wasn't until he felt Justin's hands on his chest, pulling him closer that Nick relaxed into the kiss, knowing that the other man wanted it as much as he did. The need for oxygen broke them apart, breathless and giddy. "I've wanted to do that for forever." They both said at the same time, laughing. "Kiss me again Nick? Please?" Justin begged, softly touching his fingers to Nick's cheek, his eyes glassy. Groaning, Nick once again lowered his mouth to Justin's, this time taking his time to learn every inch of the younger man's mouth, relishing in his taste and the eagerness with which he returned the kiss. As he pressed Justin tightly against the car, their groins rubbed up against one another, fueling the fire that was building between them. "You feel so good." Nick mumbled, moving his kisses up Justin's jaw to his ear, where he nipped the lobe before sucking it into his mouth. Justin's hands traveled down Nick's back to his ass, cupping him firmly and squeezing. He never thought that he'd ever be given this chance, and now that he had it he sure as hell didn't want to let it go. Remembering Nick's words earlier he pulled back. "Did you mean what you said? Earlier in the parking lot." Nick stepped back, needing to calm himself down. Just rubbing against Justin was nearly enough to make him cum and he didn't want to seem too eager, too pathetic. He tried to remember what he'd said, but the sight of Justin's lips wet from his mouth, eyes glassy from his kiss was clouding his mind. "Huh?" Boldly, Justin kept one hand on Nick's ass, while the other moved to Nick's erection that was pressing uncomfortably against the zipper of his jeans. "About not putting out on the first date. I mean, you bought me dinner. At least give me the chance to make it up to you. Repay you." Even if Nick had of wanted to, after hearing the promise in Justin's voice, seeing the gleam in his eyes, Nick couldn't resist the offer. They both knew what Justin's suggestion was entailing, and there was nothing more Nick wanted than for Justin to 'repay' him for dinner. To repay him for whatever he felt he needed repaying for. "Your car or mine?" Nick answered, thrusting into Justin's hand, which had now began to stroke his denim covered erection steadily. "Mine. I live closer." Justin whimpered, pushing Nick away and motioning for him to get in. "We'll get your car tomorrow. It's safe here." Nick wasn't going to argue. At this point he didn't even care about the car. He'd buy another one if something happened. All that mattered was getting back to Justin's and finally making his fantasies come true. Justin wasn't lying when he said he was closer. It wasn't even less than ten minutes before they had pulled into his spacious driveway, leading them up to a beautiful house guarded by trees. As much as Nick wanted to take it all in, see Justin's house, he wanted to take Justin in more. He was afraid that at any minute, this dream would be over and he would be back in his house, lying in his bed. Alone. Any fears that this was a dream was quelled the second the door closed and Nick watched Justin drop to his knees, taking Nick's jeans and boxers with him. He would have been impressed with Justin's ability to undo his belt and button if he wasn't already moaning from the feel of Justin's hot wet mouth surrounding him. Justin took time to lick and suck everywhere, his hands rolling his heavy balls, tugging insistently. "Oh god Justin... Don't stop... Feels so good.." Nick felt his knees buckle and thought he was going to fall. He could vaguely see a table next to the door, only a few inches away from him and he reached over to grasp it, steadying himself. Justin allowed for Nick's erection to fall from his mouth before licking and taking one then both of his balls into his mouth, using his hand to stroke his now neglected shaft. Wanting to watch Justin as he pleased him, Nick afforded himself to look down and was surprised to see Justin watching him, those crystal blue eyes trained on his face, watching his pleasure. That was enough to bring Nick over the edge, warning Justin loudly.

		"GOD.. I'm fucking gonna cum..." Nick took a deep breath as he waited for it, knowing that this was going to be huge. Justin, hearing the desperation in Nick's voice, engulfed his throbbing cock into his mouth, taking him entirely into his throat. Once he could feel Nick's cockhead at the back of his throat, he hummed softly, swallowing knowing that would increase the orgasm, making it stronger. With a silent scream Nick came fiercely, one hand woven in Justin's newly grown curls, the other gripping the table tightly, as if to keep him from falling over. With every spurt down Justin's throat Nick saw heaven, knowing that all these years, nothing even came close to how he felt right now with this man. Minutes later, Nick registered a soft kiss to his lips and opened his eyes to look into a pair of beautiful blue ones, lust mirroring that of which he was feeling as well. "You okay baby?" Justin said softly, licking his lips. He was unable to keep the smile from his face, knowing that the flustered statement on Nick's face was because of him. That the tremble in his hands were his doing. "I've never been better in my life Justin." Nick replied honestly. His whole body felt fantastic and he could never in his life remember feeling this good, this euphoric. With a shaky hand, Nick pulled Justin close and kissed him passionately, allowing for his tongue to taste his juice on Justin's lips and tongue, feeling himself harden against Justin's hip. It was then he remembered that Justin hadn't had his release, and there was nothing he wanted more than to give that to him. "Take me to your bedroom." Justin shivered at the lust and want in Nick's eyes, the promise that his words held. Taking Nick's hand, Justin led him through his house, promising that he'd give him a tour ...later. Much later. They entered Justin's bedroom and Nick took an appreciative glance around and noticed that Justin's bedroom looked exactly like he would expect it too. It was pretty simple, but tastefully decorated. Perfect. Like Justin. "What now?" Justin asked, breaking through Nick's thoughts and bringing him back to the present. To the fact that he was standing in Justin Timberlake's bedroom, jeans undone from just having his cock sucked. Nick turned to face Justin, smiling and beckoning him closer. When they were face to face, their breath mingling Nick stole another kiss before starting to undo Justin's jeans. "You're going to fuck me." He watched Justin's eyes open wide, his mouth open in shock. When he regained his composure, Justin kissed Nick tenderly and cupped his face in his hands. "No Nick. I'm not." Nick's breath caught in his throat and he trembled, his eyes filling with confusion ...hurt. He didn't expect Justin to turn him down. To kiss him that sweetly and then tell him he didn't want him. Before he could question Justin continued. "I'm going to make love to you. Just like I've thought about every night for my entire life." With another kiss, Justin pushed Nick onto the bed before slipping out of his clothes and joining him on the bed, assisting Nick in shrugging out of his own clothing. When they were both completely naked and had taken time to admire and worship each other's bodies, Justin crawled up on top of Nick and settled in, resting his weight on his lover. Nick leaned up and gave Justin one last kiss. "Please Jus.. I can't wait any longer. I need you now." "Have you ever?" Justin asked nervously, he wasn't sure exactly how experienced Nick was. "Yeah. I have a few times. With Kevin. You?" "Yes. Lance and I were together for about a year." Justin answered. As he began to prepare Nick with his fingers, stretching the older man to accommodate his size. Once he was certain that Nick was ready, Justin reached into his nightstand and withdrew a condom, sheathing himself and coating his erection with lube. With a kiss, he indicated that he was ready. Smiling as he felt Nick's legs tighten around his waist, Justin began pushing, wincing as he felt himself being surrounded by tight heat. When he was fully inside of Nick, Justin took a few minutes to catch his breath. It had been a while for him, and even then it hadn't been like this. Not with someone who he'd been in love with for his entire life ...who he never thought would feel the same way about him ...who he loved completely. As if their minds were connected, both men began to move at the same time, Justin pushing in and out steadily, Nick raising his hips to meet Justin's every thrust, their bodies working in complete sync. It was as if they'd done this countless times before, each knowing what the other was going to do before it was done. Justin leaned down and placed kisses all over Nick's face and neck, whispering words of love and dreams with him. He told him that he'd fallen in love with Nick the moment he'd met him, knowing that their souls were connected somehow. Nick spoke of his respect and admiration for the other man, wishing that things had been so different and they hadn't wasted so much time fighting when there was nothing to fight about. Promises were made and futures discussed until finally the heat became too much, the pleasure too great. Justin could feel the tingle starting in his stomach and knew that he wouldn't last much longer. He kissed Nick

		wantonly, murmuring against his lips that he couldn't hold on much longer, that he wanted his lover to cum with him. Nick slipped one hand between them and began to stroke his erection, that until now had been trapped between them, feeling Justin's washboard stomach grinding it with each stroke. It took no more than 3 pumps to his cock to bring Nick to the edge as well, warning Justin. "Oh god.. now..." And with those three words, both men succumbed to the passion that had been building for 9 years. Nick could feel a warmth and stickiness between them as Justin came deep inside of him, both shaking from the force of their orgasms. When Justin was certain that he was finished, he gingerly pulled out of Nick's body, discarding the condom before climbing back into the bed and handing Nick a towel. After cleaning themselves up, Justin pulled the covers up around them and snuggled closer to Nick, feeling his strong arms wrap around him and pull him tight. They lay together in silence trying to comprehend what had just taken place between them and what it all meant. It wasn't until Nick felt Justin's lips on his chest, directly over his heart that Nick could breath easy. "What are you doing Jus?" He asked, giggling at the feel of Justin's stubble on his bare chest. "Just giving my heart a little kiss goodbye." Justin replied, his voice serious. Nick looked down and their eyes met, an honest and true love expressed there. Nick's stomach flipped as the weight of Justin's words sunk in. He'd given him his heart, Nick could only hope he would treat it as the delecate gift it was, that he wouldn't crush it. "I love you Justin. If there's only one thing you know, know that. I always have, and I know I always will." "I know you do Nicky. I can see it in your face. The way you touched me tonight. In the honesty of your kisses. I trust you with my heart..." "And you with mine." Nick rolled them over so now he was leaning over Justin, their faces inches apart. As Justin leaned up to kiss Nick, he shifted down so that he was aligned with Justin's chest. Placing a series of soft kisses over Justin's heart, licking at the skin playfully. Giggling, Justin pushed Nick off of him, wiping at the wet mess that Nick had made on his chest. "You're awful Carter." "Yeah.. but you love it." "No.. I love YOU. I'll put up with that!" They paused at Justin's admission, Nick's eyes searching his lover's for confirmation. Blushing, Justin nodded his head to confirm his declaration, that he indeed loved Nick. Sighing, they settled in again wrapping their arms around one another and getting comfortable, sleep near. "God Carter. You're so fucking easy. If you'll go this far on the first date, I wonder how far I'm gonna get when we go out again." Justin laughed against Nick's chest, feeling the deep rumble of Nick's laughter too. "I guess you'll have to take me out and see. Just to think, it's this good when I pay, imagine how it'll be when YOU pay." Nick joked. For the first time in a long time he felt a sense of completion. Peace. And he knew it had to do with the angel that was snoring softly against his chest, wrapped in his arms. Finis